starting over

i've been really stupid lately.

i've been changing so much it's disgusting.
the reason i've been changing so much is because of this like extreme identity crisis i've been having i guess. ahah.
After I got over the 'scene' and lost most of my connections to it, I was a little bit depressed because I didn't really know what direction i wanted to take next. I felt like I wasn't gonna have a future because i didn't really have a dream anymore.

sure i made a bunch of new friends along the way, and lost more than a few.
but that's not really important anymore because holding grudges or that sort is just a waste of time.

wow this blog entry really blows. i'm probably gonna read it later this week and delete it and feel embarrassed i posted it in the first place.


i don't feel that i need to pay attention to stereotypes or conform to anything to be able to live my life.
I don't need to fixate myself on what i hate, and waste my time one-upping everything.
i've been really idiotic lately, in that i've been judging something that i used to be.
i just can't stand those who follow trends and claim they're being soo original.
i may have said i want to be original, and i do. But that's something i won't achieve easily.
i never said i AM original as i am now.
so please, tyler, know your facts. then please judge me.



true friends stab ya in the front