Something I've really started to notice is that no matter what I do or change in my life, that slowly I'm gravitating back to who I used to be.
I'm not saying who I used to be last year. This is larger scale than that.
I feel like I'm getting back into the things I was into back in 7th and 8th grade. It's so wierd...
Video games are starting to appeal to me again,
I love reading, especially about ancient civilizations,
I'm starting to enjoy anime again,
and even the music I'm listening to now is starting to go back to how it used to be.
I'm starting to listen to old school rock, folk, and metal.
And I feel like I'm not as social as I usually am.
Usually I want to hang with tons of different people everyday all the time.
But now I just kind of like chillin at home or with a few close friends.
Also, I've started to play piano again. I want to learn all my old stuff again.
i'm also getting a guitar too for my birthday. It's in 4 days! You better wish me a happy birthday!
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
starting over
i've been really stupid lately.
i've been changing so much it's disgusting.
the reason i've been changing so much is because of this like extreme identity crisis i've been having i guess. ahah.
After I got over the 'scene' and lost most of my connections to it, I was a little bit depressed because I didn't really know what direction i wanted to take next. I felt like I wasn't gonna have a future because i didn't really have a dream anymore.
sure i made a bunch of new friends along the way, and lost more than a few.
but that's not really important anymore because holding grudges or that sort is just a waste of time.
wow this blog entry really blows. i'm probably gonna read it later this week and delete it and feel embarrassed i posted it in the first place.
i don't feel that i need to pay attention to stereotypes or conform to anything to be able to live my life.
I don't need to fixate myself on what i hate, and waste my time one-upping everything.
i've been really idiotic lately, in that i've been judging something that i used to be.
i just can't stand those who follow trends and claim they're being soo original.
i may have said i want to be original, and i do. But that's something i won't achieve easily.
i never said i AM original as i am now.
so please, tyler, know your facts. then please judge me.
true friends stab ya in the front
i've been changing so much it's disgusting.
the reason i've been changing so much is because of this like extreme identity crisis i've been having i guess. ahah.
After I got over the 'scene' and lost most of my connections to it, I was a little bit depressed because I didn't really know what direction i wanted to take next. I felt like I wasn't gonna have a future because i didn't really have a dream anymore.
sure i made a bunch of new friends along the way, and lost more than a few.
but that's not really important anymore because holding grudges or that sort is just a waste of time.
wow this blog entry really blows. i'm probably gonna read it later this week and delete it and feel embarrassed i posted it in the first place.
i don't feel that i need to pay attention to stereotypes or conform to anything to be able to live my life.
I don't need to fixate myself on what i hate, and waste my time one-upping everything.
i've been really idiotic lately, in that i've been judging something that i used to be.
i just can't stand those who follow trends and claim they're being soo original.
i may have said i want to be original, and i do. But that's something i won't achieve easily.
i never said i AM original as i am now.
so please, tyler, know your facts. then please judge me.
true friends stab ya in the front
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